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There is a Kazuha in a black suit today. She looks like she could be yakuza ~~or a turk~~. She might be a bit odd, especially combined with the fact she's got a katana and a tanto blade.

The rage is probably more familiar.

"I do not need this right now! I have ta talk ta the scary snake almost god thing about the scary bear pervert one!" And shouting at the ceiling in the lobby. And glaring. Lots of that.

"...I know ya can hear me! I'm not even in a special room!"

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Well, she was more referring to the games that could change things. Like make her a pony or someting.

"I slept with someone. After I've confessed ta Heiji and we're...I don't even KNOW, however ya'd define a relationship in a murdercave!" Kazuha said, wrapping her arms around herself and looking away. "And I'm afraid ta talk ta Heiji because I don't know if I'll be able ta say it ta him without doin' somethin' ta make it worse first for the same reason I couldn't stop myself from doin' that!"

The tears were already coming because thinking about it made her want to cry. And there was no hope in even trying to stop it.

Okay, so maybe she couldn't help. Hattori reached out to put a hand on Kazuha's arm -- even if she couldn't understand her, maybe she could at least make her feel a bit better. "Ya wanna cry, get it out now, Kazu. Go on -- you'll feel better. An' you'll be able to think better after it too."

"I can't not cry!" It's not even light tears, they're really already streaming and there's a bit of a hitch in her voice that says she's barely holding back the sobs.

"Queen's took away my inhibitions! If I didn't want ta run ta him as much as I wanted ta run away, I would have done somethin' by now. I can't go, I'd probably want ta be near him and not want ta leave and act all couply and it's so hard ta stop myself if I don't have somehtin' else ta focus on, but I can't hide it from him either!"

Hattori carefully felt in her back pocket for her handkerchief, holding it out to Kazuha.

Kazuha took it, trying to wipe away the tears. "Damn it...stupid Queen, stupid Izaya takin' the stupid symbol, got infected then, stupid Blaze. It's all....so stupid and not FAIR. It makes it even harder ta do my job, but how do I ask a god that no, I don't want their influence over my mind?"

How do you tell an upset best friend you don't have the slightest idea what she's talking about?

"Dunno anything about gods, Kazu, but there's gotta be someone here who does. We'll work it out once yer feelin' better."

She wouldn't blame her. It's just hard to stop the torrent of emotion once it started and it was better to get it out.

Though there's a bit of a manic laugh at that. "Only if they're psychic. Parrot says I need a heart game or a person who can go inta the mind ta get rid of it. He's been insistent I see Heiji so the normal blanks know since our hands get tied easily."

That...probably didn't help.

((ooc: I'm really sorry, but I'm finding it really hard to reply to this thread since there's just so much that Hattori doesn't get. I hope you'll understand and won't mind if I leave things here?))

((OOC: Yeah, that's fine.))

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